Casualty of War
By Nicky Demirci
Shots fire in my head
An airplane passes over
Laboured breath, sweaty brow
Not long left of this nightmare,
Can I wake up now?
Camouflage protects me
Body armour deflects some shots
But images inside my head refuse to be erased
Bold, stark, each blink produces another snap-shot
The sounds, the smell, the burning
Screams piercing through my head as another body is pierced
Massacre, carnage, fear, justice, revenge
What is it for and does anyone ever really win?
Medal pinned on jacket but wounds left inside
Duty finished, leaving a war-zone to fight a different one
One that is relentless, one that refuses to back down
No six-month tour of duty for me
This is a long one, it's for life
I'm the lucky one they say, the one that got away
I don't feel lucky; I carry the aftermath in my head
Dread upon waking and long nights full of vivid dreams
I'm a statistic, just a number, a name in the paper
A face upon the screen
I can be many things
A hero, a villain, a killer, a father, a son
Opposing views, differing opinions,
Is this what I signed up for?
I'm just another casualty of war
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Nicky Demirci 2018